More than Midway Maternity Leave Update

Hi friends! I’m a little more than midway through maternity leave. I reached out to my clients yesterday with an update for October scheduling so I thought I would stop by the blog to say hello, too.

Our baby boy was born on July 8th and has changed me from the inside out. So much so that I had to start writing poetry? I never considered myself much of a poet but here we are. In the weeks after he was born I kept having jumbled words run through my head — I still do. It usually happens in the moments that I experience profound joy and love, while at the same time experiencing such heartbreak that I ache — because what “they” say is true, it goes by quickly. The newborn stage is fleeting, and so is the next stage, and the next… each bringing more and more joy and heartbreak. And somehow it keeps getting better and better.

Anyways, I began noting these jumbled words in my phone as a way to cope and stay present with the depth and range of motherhood. These words have turned into small poems I will cherish forever.

These poems feel very sacred to me, like little mementos from my very favorite days. Each word a small vault holding the depth of love I hold for my son. It has no end. So, I won’t share them all right now, maybe ever, or maybe I will one day. I don’t know. But I will share one because it may feel relatable and it shows where I am in life. I’m relearning with the most wonderful new teacher.

To my son, I love you more than these words could ever express.

Here is my poem:

Slipping Through my Fingers

on replay in my mind

torturing me with

nostalgia for yesterday

How I long for your tiny

fingers

wrapped around mine

while they’re still in my

hand